While I can’t say much at the moment, I can say that right now is ROUGH. Things aren’t going my way, and things haven’t been going my way for quite some time. However, I believe that everything is going to be OK.
I can’t talk about what’s going on, but I can say that every choice I make from here on out will be an intentional one. Every choice will have a purpose. It has taken me a year of ups and downs throughout all aspects of my life to realize that some days, some weeks, some months, and some years are not yours to conquer. Sometimes the hits just keep coming, but how you deal with each one is up to you.
It could be worse. No one died, and no one is dying. (Knock on wood.)
It’s taken this year of crap (ineloquent but true) for me to realize that I wll be OK. Never before have I ever doubted my “okayness” until I went through this last year, but now I know that I can and will be OK no matter what. Life happens. It’s how you deal with it that determines how you will proceed.
These next few weeks and months will be a challenge, but I will get through them. If anything, my challenges in this past year have taught me that I have a support system, as non-traditional as it may be. I have people that love me. I have people that worry about me. I have people that will kick me in the ass when I need it. I have people that will not let me forget what good things I have in my life and what things I am capable of doing.
Last year, I was sad and uncertain about the future. Today, I have a plan, and I am hopeful.